live love.

as far as i can tell it has been 21 days since my last post. far too long for my own good. blogging. writing. was meant to keep me on track. keep me focused. but i have let myself just say i'll do it soon, and soon never comes. i've become the same way with many spiritual disciplines. so here is another attempt at one week straight. a blog post a day for 7 days in a row. i've done it once before, though barely. quite a bit i suppose ... Read More

i have put my fat bird on t-shirts now. they can be ordered here: http://www.cafepress.com/myfatbird -- live love. Read More

tape me up seal me good get me in the largest strait jacket you can find pad the locks throw away the keys swallow the combo wrap me up i need prevention, some intervention for my actions bring you pain my words destroying all the same i break the golden rule i speak when there's nothing nice to say i display the ever unkind i live the epitome of hurt all i do is hurt pass the grey duct tape my mouth so its ever sealed shut better yet cut some string sew this cursed thing sew those lips and lock ... Read More

i need the stomach punch i need the wind knocked out the wind of me, my pride, and i hit me. punch me. break me down. i need to breathe You in i need to breathe me out inhale all of You drink in Your spirit, exhale mine all out pour me out, please pour me out i'm letting go i'm breathing out i'm giving up i'm breathing out i surrender, i surrender i'm breathing surrender it's all got to go it's all coming out it's time to release to let it all out surrendering i am and breathing me out taking You in You're ... Read More

6 dollars in my wallet. 6 days until i take my sat's. 15 days of school completed. 48 days until application for chapman is due. 65 days until my last first high school varsity basketball game. 257 days until i graduate(includes weekends and non school days). yesterday. friday. last day of the week. i grew frustrated over little things. things that didn't matter. i displayed a non Christ like attitude. it had built up and was slowly revealing itself. last period of the day. precal. doesn't help any. but this time it did. in the ... Read More

i've got no direction i can't find rewind i guess its time to fly just go with the flow to where i don't know i just want to grow... looking for pause but stuck in fast forward wishing for normal but meant to live abnormal you got your act together i can't seem to find my scene the stage is set the lines unknown the curtains drawn looks like it's time to just go i've only got one shot at this thing called life i get one chance no intermissions, no time outs, and not a single re-do i get one ... Read More