http://unsoundtransient.com Mon, 27 Jul 2009 18:46:30 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en against You and only You have i sinned my flesh won out and i copped out i gave in and committed the sin my flesh is strong i gave way in i let it in i did the sin You saw it all, You watched the act and now in shame i beg upon Your name i plead for forgiveness Your ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/07/27/against-you-and-only-you/ it has been a long long time since i have last written and posted anything. i am the perfect example of inconsistency...not a good thing... well here is a quick update as to what i have been up to 2 fridays ago, june 12, 2009 i graduated high school. very surreal. still not sure ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/06/21/im-lame/ june 12, 2009. this day only comes once. there will never again be another june 12, 2009. life is lived once. and only once. faculty and staff. friends and family. pastor davidson. mr cantrell. pastor thomas. class of 2009. the years. the months. the days. the hours, minutes and seconds that make up our lives have ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/06/12/valedictorian-speech/ i have to confess i made a mess, i messed it all up all Your intentions and ways You made me to worship, You made me to praise and worship i do, but not unto You i adore myself, i love myself, i lift up my own banner of praise i’ve got it all wrong, i’ve ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/04/29/417/ “we are now, and we will be in the future, only as intimate with God as we really choose to be.”  -j oswald sanders   so true. my relationship with God is my responsibility. i have no one else to blame but me. yes, God still grows me, and must change me, but it is my ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/04/22/yea/ today james hacked my site to make it easier to have the picture for each post instead of using stupid excerpts. he’s getting quite proficient at the hacking and tweaking of wordpress sites. as i have often found myself and i mentioned in my last blog i haven’t blogged in a while. this ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/04/19/406/ it has been 35 days since i last posted a blog. i am a horrible person, i know. my webmaster keeps reminding me just how horrible i am.  what? webmaster you say? yes, i have a webmaster to manage the massive influx of hits and other such web statistic terms and phrases that ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/04/19/webmaster-james/ God. my Creator. my Maker. all powerful. me. human. created. not powerful at all. it only makes sense to worship the Creator. the Maker. but i find myself worshipping myself more than i do the One who even granted me the privilege and ability to worship or breathe at all. but i find myself ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/03/15/out-of-rhythm/ so let's start from the beginning. january 5, 1991 is the day that i left my mothers womb and joined you all on this spinning sphere we call the earth. fast forward 7 years. christian family. went to church every sunday. listened to billy graham on the way to church every sunday morning. ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/02/11/my-story/ i haven't blogged since last year. and i say that quite literally. cheesy i know. bear with me here. i haven't blogged not because lack of content but lack of time and discipline to make myself do it. tonight at church we had a testimony time and as one by one people ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2009/02/08/389/ well. the year of 2008 is about over. i haven't posted in a while. partially due to basketball season having started, partially due to me being lazy, and partially due to me having a hard time to put things into words. i feel like i have learned and grown alot this past yr. but at ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/12/31/new-years-eve/ i cleaned my room today. it was not necessarily overly messy per se. but it was quite cluttered. i had papers everywhere. its funny how things start off clean and gradually become a huge mess. i found an invitation to my friends graduation from june...just as an example of time compounding the problem. at the moment ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/12/13/clean-room-2008-12-13/ i feel a bit selfish making a christmas list, but the other day my mother asked me what i wanted and then i laughed...i have expensive tastes...well here it is, my christmas wish list of sorts... muchos dineros: 01. red scarlet + lenses, battery, monitor system, etc. 02. canon 5d mark II + lenses, extra ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/30/wish-list-of-08/ i had an interesting way of wrapping up my thanksgiving day. watching the 2 hr. prequel to the upcoming season of 24. (this part has nothing to do with my reason for posting this, but i have been a fan of 24 for a long time and last season was ridiculous and ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/27/24forget-the-trees-save-the-children/ in no particular order, 100 random things i would like to do or have happen before i die.... 001. bic my head 002. get carvings on my head 003. write a children's book (and have it published) 004. burn coal 005. get married 006. sky dive 007. bungee jump 008. get my drivers license 009. go on the amazing ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/22/100-things-to-do/ day 7. i finished my task. the consistency was difficult not going to lie. blogging daily though helped me to definitely keep before me areas of my life in which i struggle. which quite honestly is pretty much every area of my life. i so often fail. but so often i seem to ignore it. i ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/17/7-of-7-still-figuring-it-out/ i'm sick, sick sick of the disease the disease of being born born into this dying race i thought You came to heal to bring me back to life but why do i fail why do i break why do i still get sick i called Your name i screamed in pain but i sill get hurt i still feel sick my mind ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/16/6-of-7sick-of-the-disease/ day 5 i almost really really forgot to blog today. but aaron kept me accountable and just reminded me. today was a busy day. 9am-noon was spent playing basketball in the nasty hot wind. noon-1pm consisted of showering, dropping video, and prepping a camera for wintercasualwonderland.(wcw) 1:30 pm went to bethel, set up tech and such ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/15/5-of-7/ day 4 i almost forgot about the whole trying to blog for a week straight thing today... fortunately i had the word blog written and circled on a piece of paper on my ever cluttered desk that managed to see light and make eye contact with me. i used to use post it ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/14/4-of-7/ day 3. i have come to realize i am very judgmental. i judge people all the time. often without even thinking about it. before i know it i am thinking critical or negative thoughts about a person. i do this with people i know and even with complete strangers i see at a store. i have ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/13/3-of-7/ day 2. e. lock gave us this quote tonight and it got me thinking and writing on the back of a tithing envelope. "a man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, 'darkness' on the walls ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/12/2-of-7/ as far as i can tell it has been 21 days since my last post. far too long for my own good. blogging. writing. was meant to keep me on track. keep me focused. but i have let myself just say i'll do it soon, and soon never comes. i've become the same way ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/11/11/1-of-7/ i have put my fat bird on t-shirts now. they can be ordered here: http://www.cafepress.com/myfatbird -- live love. http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/10/21/my-fat-bird/ tape me up seal me good get me in the largest strait jacket you can find pad the locks throw away the keys swallow the combo wrap me up i need prevention, some intervention for my actions bring you pain my words destroying all the same i break the golden rule i speak when there's nothing nice to say i display the ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/10/08/epitome-of-hurt/ i need the stomach punch i need the wind knocked out the wind of me, my pride, and i hit me. punch me. break me down. i need to breathe You in i need to breathe me out inhale all of You drink in Your spirit, exhale mine all out pour me out, please pour me out i'm letting go i'm ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/10/05/breathing-surrender/ 6 dollars in my wallet. 6 days until i take my sat's. 15 days of school completed. 48 days until application for chapman is due. 65 days until my last first high school varsity basketball game. 257 days until i graduate(includes weekends and non school days). yesterday. friday. last day of the week. i grew frustrated over ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/09/27/66154865257-update/ i've got no direction i can't find rewind i guess its time to fly just go with the flow to where i don't know i just want to grow... looking for pause but stuck in fast forward wishing for normal but meant to live abnormal you got your act together i can't seem to find my scene the stage is set the lines ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/09/25/one/ envious... oh so envious... lies...i'm lying to myself saying i am fine and alright but deep down i know... that i envy, envy, oh so envious i tell you that it's ok i say if you're happy then so am i lying, lying, lying to myself saying i am fine and alright when deep inside i know... that i envy, ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/09/08/lying-just-to-envy/ fourth day of school ended today. last wednesday was my last first day of high school. 276 days left till i graduate on june 12th at 7pm. (Lord willing i do graduate....) my class schedule is much more full than i originally intended or thought. after day one i gotta admit i wanted to ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/09/08/last-first/ new york city was amazing. i want to go back again some day. the first day of the trip we went to where my dad grew up and was born in massachusetts and stayed the night in a hotel there. saturday we went to upstate new york to visit another place my ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/08/22/new-york/ the beautiful cross. symbol of pain. death. and suffering. symbol of life. sacrifice. and forgiveness means of redemption. symbol of eternal hope. means for eternal life. means everything to me. doesn't seem right. doesn't seem just. is anything but fair. makes me forever thankful. makes me forever in awe. makes me forever want Him. i claim the cross. the beautiful cross. the beautiful truth. http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/08/14/the-cross/ sweet design spencer the marine made. [caption id="attachment_183" align="alignnone" width="300" caption="design by spencer"][/caption] http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/08/11/live-love-city/ i don't know much. and the more i think i know. the more i learn. the more i start to understand. the more i realize how little i know. how little i really understand. the more i learn the less i know. this world is too vast. the Creator of this world is even more ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/07/24/the-more-i-learn-the-less-i-know/ i still love you spencer. http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/07/22/chipmucks-make-me-smile/ the other day i overheard someone complaining that life isn't fair. and they were right. life isn't fair. life isn't even close to fair. and for that i am extremely happy. if life were fair, i would have no hope. i would be hopeless. if life were fair, i would get exactly what i ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/07/22/life-isnt-fair/ i am bad at doing "devotions." i struggle to read my bible everyday. i often fail to sit and be immersed in absolute truth. too many times when i go to lay my head down to sleep i realize i left something out of my day. now for me its hard at times to ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/07/06/i-dont-always-read-my-bible/ simply defined a blog snob is one who looks at the blog of another and says "wow that blog is ugly, mine is way better." that was a direct quote from renae ashton by the way. the first official blog snob as far as we know. i must admit. i do fall into ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/07/06/blog-snob/ Jesus said " freely you have received, freely give." i'm sure that i have read that before. possibly even heard a message on it. but that phrase has been finding its way through my thoughts. and it came sprinting to the front of my mind last night while watching the mole. (if you have ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/06/24/selfish/ tomorrow morning at 9 am i shall begin my first day of basic drawing at santa ana college. i'm excited. and nervous. i have no idea what i am expected to bring to the class. nor do i have any idea of the expectations of what one's drawing and artistic abilities should be going ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/06/22/basic-drawing/ considering the lack of bloggage (did i just create a new word?) lately here's a quick update on my life. friday was my last day of school, i have now officially completed my junior year of high school. that night i got to see my friends and classmates graduate from high ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/06/16/bloggage/ click read more to view the picture slideshows. there are four of them on the page, feel free to pause them and watch in whatever order or way you so desire. ﾠ ﾠ ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/06/07/pictures-from-the-district-of-columbia/ the district of columbia is a place every american needs to visit. it was so surreal to be there. to be 250 feet from the president of the united states as he gives his memorial day speech in the amphitheater next to the tomb of the unknown soldier in the arlington cemetery. to ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/05/29/experiencing-the-district-of-columbia/ last night i got back from my class trip to the district of columbia. it was more than fun. it was inspiring. it was moving. it was humbling. it was more fun. at times it was tiring from lack of adequate sleep but it was all worth it. unfortunately on the first day my video camera stopped ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/05/29/im-back/ orange juice is indeed the superior breakfast beverage. there is no doubt in my mind this is true. in fact there are times when orange juice is superior even when not a breakfast beverage. some will argue milk is better. but milk hurts my stomach when i drink it. i love minute maid with calcium. -- live ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/05/19/the-superior-breakfast-beverage/ yes sirs and ma'ams. new look. so far i think i am in like. thanks to james over at unlinkedmedia for helping me figure out a couple things to make it work. -- live love. live as doulos. http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/05/19/yep/ sorry about the blurriness and messed up first couple seconds. that's yoututbe quality for you. http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/05/10/basketball-highlight-video/ i wrote this during pastor davidson's message tonight. he was talking about being there for one another, about supporting those who are weak, those who are in need. he mentioned a silent scream and that got me thinking and i grabbed a half piece of paper and started writing this: they're falling, ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/04/27/silent-scream/ rock climbing youth activity...probably my worst video...let me know what you think. http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/04/23/rc08/ this post is partially for renae because she said i needed to write a new post so she could comment some more. but really i just want to say i am sick of the current look on my site here. sorry to any of you who like it, but i'm no longer ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/04/15/no-me-gusta/ in light of my lack of capability to swim i have decided it prudent to write a will. i do not own very many things but this so far is my list of items and who shall be receiving them. 1. my imac. this will be offered to my church under the ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/03/30/in-the-event-that-i-should-perish-from-the-earth/ i'm sitting here attempting to write. attempting to make sense of the thoughts that flood my mind. thoughts that run into each other and produce more thoughts. i almost feel as if i'm trying too hard to "blog." too hard to come up with something meaningful to say. trying to come up with something that ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/03/29/why-are-titles-sometimes-so-hard-to-come-up-with/ it has been 18 days since my last post. thought. blog. whatever you so choose to call it. this is essentially just to say hey i'm still alive. i still know this site exists. i haven't forgotten about it. i actually have had quite a few things go through my mind but i haven't quite ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/03/27/post-of-a-blog-thought/ i'm tired. today was long. so was yesterday. but as i walked to church this afternoon i was instantly refreshed. the moment i stepped out of my mobile home park i was instantly amazed. it was a gorgeous day. the sun was shining. not too bright. not too hot. just right. scarcely a cloud to be seen. gentle ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/03/09/030908/ only as far as the color of this blog. thinking of rolling with this look for a little while. it's pretty simple and right now that's kinda what i want. i have a few themes up my sleeve that have huge potential, but they will never be anything until i actually take some time ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/03/04/going-green/ i want to live with reckless abandon. i don't want to hold anything back. Jesus did not ever intend for us to live part time. to be part time followers. to be part time disciples. we are either following Him or we aren't. everything we do is either glorifying God or going against God. there is no ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/03/04/reckless-abandon/ i need to write. i haven't blogged in a long while. i need to get back to some consistency in this, as God knows i am inconsistent as can be and i hate that about how i live. i have been sick for about a week and a half now. being sick is lame. i ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/02/28/its-been-a-while/ not the best looking site at the moment i know. i have some ideas for what i want it to look like and what functions i want, but i need to learn quite a bit more as far as key fields and  css and php go. so i think for now this ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/02/15/working-on-it/ i am trying to find a new look for my site here. please bear with me as i play around with different looks and designs. http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/02/10/bear-with-me/ second of possibly 3 main event videos. enjoy.[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzPd0ED0Ha8[/youtube] http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/02/10/main-event-08/ part one of hopefully three videos from main event. [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HuLgUpXHjFI[/youtube] http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/02/07/heart-of-worship/ had to write a memoir for english class here it is. (caps are present only because i copied and pasted from what i had to type to turn in, i apologize for that) Summer of 2005, missions trip to Belgium, my world view began to change as the blurred vision of ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/02/07/english-memoir/ "let every breath all that i am, never cease to worship You." i recently have lost control. i got mad. i was frustrated and upset. about an hour later i was able to get over it, and no longer be angry. but i still screwed up. we sang the "shout to the Lord" tonight. sung ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/01/23/141/ i am sick of mediocrity. i am sick of being ok with it. i am sick of other people being ok with it. if i'm not going to do something right and well and the best possible then what is the point. i do not want anything short of perfection. maybe i'm asking too much. i ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/01/12/11208/ it's a new year. let's see what happens huh. i feel like i should be posting something like i don't know. you get what i mean, and if not then oh well. happy new year. live. love. live love. live christ. http://unsoundtransient.com/2008/01/01/1-01-08/ it is easy to write and click publish. it is easy to be open and transparent from the comfort of my room sitting in front of my computer screen. it is easy to let you all read my thoughts, passions, and struggles. it's not very hard. i type what i think in text edit. i ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/31/its-easy-to-write-and-click-publish/ 1. i do not like marshmallows. 2. i have an immense fear of being surrounded by water..pool,lake, ocean etc... 3. have noticed clothing companies are beginning to make their size smalls really big. 4. clowns freak me ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/30/the-list-83/ jeans. flip flops. a favorite combination of mine. i am currently sneezing. it actually hurts sometimes. cough drops work wonders. not a fan of being sick. eric lokker i don't know how you do it. but i'm sure there is something to learn from it. just right now i'm not sure what that is. hopefully some better posts soon. live. love. live ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/29/jeans-flip-flops/ i think i am sick. at least on the verge of becoming sick. my throat hurts. cough drops are my new best friend. starting to get congested. not fun. anyways. go get a gravatar. it will let you have a spiffy or not so spiffy image to go with your comments. ~i think nick at least will ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/28/131/ well today is december 25, the day that we call christmas and take time to celebrate and reflect on the birth of our Savior. a time we typically spend with family and the giving and receiving of gifts. Jesus was the most amazing gift ever given and for that i am truly ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/25/merry-christmas/ rhythm. not sure how to describe it really, but when you are in rhythm you just know it. everything flows. is smooth. natural. its like when you are just shooting around and shots are just going in. not even trying. you don't even think about anything and the shots just fall. it feels good. it's rhythmic. it's natural feeling. it's fluid. or ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/22/rhythm/ i am a hypocrite. you are too. i claim so many things. i claim so much truth. but rarely it seems do i live it out. i feel repetitive. like a broken record. i have said this all before. i'm in love with me. way too in love with me. way too love with stuff. i am too easily satisfied with ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/19/i-dont-even-know/ as you can you probably tell my site looks a tad different then before. feel free to let me know what you think of the new look both good and bad. i'm still trying to find a good picture for the header. but at this moment i have what i think is a ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/17/new-look/ "God calls us to pray and think and dream and plan and work not to be made much, but to make much of Him in every part of our lives." - john piper i so often fail that. i desire to honor and glorify God in every aspect of my life. yet it ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/15/i-get-itbut-i-dont/ why does losing hurt so bad? why does failure bring so much pain? why can i not stand losing and failing? why does it make me so mad at myself? why does it make me hurt so much both physically and emotionally? why? http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/11/why/ running too fast thinking too slow even not at all skipping beats out of rhythm lack of control reckless i am not keeping my head and breaking down in fast forward i am and i know yet once again i find myself to be going to fast slow me down slow me down slow my tempo down ashamed i stand for i learn not from my mistakes i repeat ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/08/fast-forward/ calling it a poem... leaning then falling, wavering to and fro, now high then low left then right, i wander from one extreme to another out of rhythm and out of space from too little to too much, i try and fail. unbalanced i've become. unbalanced i've always been. this feeling i know, oh too well do i know... unbalance i know... i'm not ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/12/04/balance/ calling this a poem for now. (first verse) so tired of confusion so tired of me so tired of messing up so tired of the disrespect i give (chorus) life is precious, life is short i just want to live it right i just want my life to be what it was meant to be i just want to do ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/23/so-tired/ about two weeks ago just about every store pretty much everywhere began playing christmas music. please do not take this the wrong way. i am not a grinch. i do not hate christmas. i love christmas. just not christmas music... see there are only so many christmas songs out there about oh i dont know only ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/23/un-mas-list/ i think we do a pretty good job of being thankful for stuff. i'm thankful for tons of stuff from food to my mac to running water to vitamin water. but something i have come to be even more thankful for is people. for the community God has put me in. for the huge ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/22/people-im-thankful-for/ building up. not tearing down. a huge part of living love. why are we always tearing one another down. hurting. damaging. so often with our words, we tear down, we hurt, we damage. and we do so easily, often without any thought. now i have written briefly about this before, but i have learned some more on the ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/21/this-place/ i took one too many naps to day i think. i'm pretty tired and even sleepy right now, but i can't seem to fall asleep. so to occupy myself i decided to just start writing, or more like typing. free typing, free writing same thing i suppose. the song "enough" has been running through ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/17/satisfied-enough/ [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1RUvf5OBxcc[/youtube] http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/17/spam/ long day almost over. first basketball practice was today. i body feels bruised and beat up as if i had just got done playing a physical team about halfway through the season. got a hair cut today. glad i got it now, but it didnt turn out quite the way i would have liked. but ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/10/attempt-at-being-consistent-numero-ocho/ i'm tired. this weekend is gonna be busy one. cross country race tomorrow morning. meeting at 6:45 then right after the race i have basketball practice from 11-1. i'm excited, but tired already none the less. still need to finish up some homework. no school monday will be nice. this post so far reminds me of david ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/09/attempt-at-being-consistent-numero-siete/ not sure if i will be able to post tonight or not... so here is one somewhat early in la manana. all the attempts at espanol are due to me preparing por mi examen de espanol. i'm definitely not the best at spanish that is for sure... God is good all the time. always. no matter ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/08/attempt-at-consistency-numero-seis/ tonight was amazing. before the service got to talk with guicho. it is the amazing the connection you have with people when the connecting factor is God. we watched the nooma video breathe tonight. my second time seeing it. it was so powerful. even more so this second time than the first. the hebrew name for God ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/07/attempt-at-consistency-numero-cinco/ again another morning post. but for a different reason today. i'm going to the girls volleyball playoff game tonight which is somewhere about 2 hours from here so with game time at 7 and the drive back, won't be home till late and will need to go to sleep pretty much right ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/06/attempt-at-consistency-numero-quatro/ it is early right now. usually i would be leaving in a few minutes to get my minute of driving in, but my mom left at 6:30 today and i had just gotten in the shower. so no dice there. which is why i am writing this post now, considering it being ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/05/attempt-at-consistency-numero-tres/ today is sunday. i love sundays. more than a break from school and sports, it is a time to re-connect with other believers who i may not see or keep much contact with throughout the week. it is a time to be challenged. a time to build up. a time to learn. now sundays should not ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/04/attempt-at-consistency-numero-dos/ this will be post numero uno in my feeble attempt at being consistent at something. today went well. breakfast at the church. basketball potluck, drove home from there, then had my last behind the wheel with an instructor who took me on the driving test for the westminster dmv so i would know ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/03/attempt-at-being-consistent-numero-uno/ in an attempt to establish some sort of consistency in my life i am going to attempt to post something at least once a day for a week starting now. keep me accountable. love. live it. http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/02/attempt-at-consistency/ envy: a feeling of discontent or covetousness with regard to another's advantages, success, possessions, etc. that is how dictionary.com defines envy. today in Bible class we learned the second half to the Biblical definition of envy: "not wishing and wanting the best for others" once you add that part in i start to ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/02/nothing-but-the-best/ youth group at pastor matt's house on halloween.[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tD-CKKZPe-4[/youtube] http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/11/02/mosaic-of-oct-31/ "um..." what most people say or mutter or verbalize or what have you when not sure exactly what to say or how to respond. well i don't know what to title this so... um...here it is... i now have pictures up. much nicer way or presenting them than flickr. to view them (at least at ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/10/28/um/ building up. not tearing down. that is how i want to live. how i was meant to live. the way God intended us to live. why do i complain? tear down. hurt. harm. destroy. it doesn't make any sense, yet it is so easy to do. it is easier to talk trash than to praise. it is easier to do harm then ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/10/27/but-its-easier/ i haven't posted in a while, so i guess good a time as any to just get something new up here. let's see... i've driven a bit more now, and liking it a lot. it's getting a little easier and more comfortable each time. i drove my mom's '93 ford escort wagon. the beast. one day ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/10/12/the-beast/ by my selfish desires, the line is blurred. between want and need, necessity and greed. to want. to crave. what is need. and what is just desire. my mind says i need. but perhaps i simply desire. i need, said my greed. http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/10/06/i-need-said-my-greed/ it doesn't matter the game the grade the "a" the loss the "f" it doesn't matter in the grand scheme toys and cars lands afar money and time do they mean more than this rhyme so what matters what counts yet somehow it all matters it all counts everything means something i've heard it said everything is spiritual is what i write now the truth or fallacy at times i ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/10/02/words-came-crashing-though-my-mind-in-the-midst-of-sleep/ what do you think of this new theme? love feedback and criticism. love to you all. almost forgot, navigation, links, etc. are down at the bottom in case you were wondering, but i know you are all smart enough to figure that out:) http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/09/30/what-do-you-think/ random idea i just came up with. well. sort of. not really. i've had the idea floating in my head. parts of it came from spencer. how awesome would it be, if i could open (with the help of some friends of course) a studio for recording, mixing, editing, audio and video and graphics. like have a ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/09/28/big-ideabigger-god/ *edit: this was like two themes ago, i have been changing a lot here, bare with me as i look for one i like i like this current word press theme. but... when you go to a page from the top navigation my sidebar changes. i cant find an easy way to change it ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/09/24/so/ http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/09/20/ironwood-video/ "blessed be the name of the Lord" "his name is worthy to be praised" maybe i'm missing something here. but as i was thinking of those phrases the other day, i began to wonder. why? how? why do we bless the name of the Lord? how is a name worthy of praise? the idea that the name of ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/09/19/no-idea-what-to-title-this/ some buddies and i managed to make up some songs while at ironwood. improv. spur of the moment. free style. but i like to film everything. here's the first three songs in the order that they occurred. "aveeno" "deoderant" "text messages" a hopefully more polished and edited ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/09/19/improv/ so the ipod touch is now available. it is pretty much one of the best things technology wise out there. along with, well, everything they make..new imacs..new ipods..you name it i probably want one. not only that but apple has been lowering prices on all their products lately. and most if not all of ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/09/13/wasted/ ...i just got my permit today!! pretty sweet. i managed to only miss three questions. (i figured i'd end up missing eight.) only downside is my first behind the wheel with an instructor isn't until september 28. so no driving still until after that session. but it is all good. love to you all. http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/08/22/hmm/ i had a great conversation with a friend named bob the other day. we were talking about growth. he gave me the example of buildings and trees. as i was showering this morning, i was thinking of that conversation. and decided to write down what i was thinking. how many times do we attempt to ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/08/14/growth/ here it goes... with you i am so prideful, and full of me. but so and so brings me humbly to my knees. he brings out the worst, and she the best. so who am i really? always changing, never consistent. never the same, always different. i'm so sick of living inconsistent. i want to be real. i ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/08/08/possibly-a-poem/ use the audio player below to listen. [audio:trtestimonies.mp3] http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/08/06/teamredemption-testimonies/ inconsistency. i hate it. i am so sick of living an inconsistent life. why can't i be the same person at all times? (i am not saying i don't want change, i'm saying i don't want to be different around certain people or in certain situations.) why am i so unbalanced? (i don't even update this site ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/08/02/inconsistency/ old site design was starting to wear on me. i needed a change. something simple. fewer colors. this is it. feel free to let me know what you think. love. http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/08/02/test-1/ little vid i edited. pretty simple. nothing much too it. http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/07/31/vbs/ i'm home now. actually i have been home since tuesday night. wednesday i felt terrible. was dehydrated. got an iv. had a headache all day until thursday afternoon. since then i have felt fantastic. vbs at my church just finished today. last i heard 8 kids became followers of Christ. nothing much more to add. there are lots of pictures ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/07/29/a-little-late/ leaving tommorrow morning. should be back in l.a. about 6'ish i'm tired. ready to come home. sad to leave the leavells and taylors. i cant wait to sleep in my own bed once again. possibly more when once im back. but i forsee about 15 hours of sleep as soon as my body hits my bed. thanks for ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/07/23/almost-home/ hopefully, you are checking team redemption.org.the post i put up was brief.im still here at the leavells at the moment uploading the blog video chelsea took all night to make.so since im waiting for the file to upload i figure id give a little more detail to those of you ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/07/12/from-belgium/ 3:30. at 3:40 i will call eric lokker. then he will come to pick me and up, and we will meet at bethel. and then im off. this is me about 2 minutes ago. pray for us. visit teamredemption.org. i love you guys. http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/07/09/im-off/ its 2:05 pm pacific standard time as i type this. (im sure by the time i post this the time will be much different.) in approximately 14 hours, i will be at bethel. and from there. lax. atlanta. belgium. im pretty stoked. excited. pumped. nervous. choose one and im it. all at the same time. based on some different circumstances, and talks i ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/07/08/europe/ christian view of hope by c.s. lewis: "Creatures are not born with desires unless satisfaction for those desires exists. A baby feels hunger: well, there is such a thing as food. A duckling wants to swim: well, there is such a thing as water. Men feel sexual desire: well, there is ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/07/06/mere-christianity-book-3-chapter-9-hope/ i'm about half way through reading c.s. lewis's book "mere christianity." it's deep, yet simple. makes a ton of sense, yet confuses at times. it's making me think. it's helping me understand some things i was questioning. i am thoroughly enjoying it, and am certain i will need to reread it many more times to ... http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/07/04/mere-christianity/ edited by chelsea bobo. http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/06/24/broom-hockey/ the meaning behind my domain name. click unsound transient under navigation. live love. http://unsoundtransient.com/2007/06/19/unsound-transient/