live love.

i'm sick, sick sick of the disease the disease of being born born into this dying race i thought You came to heal to bring me back to life but why do i fail why do i break why do i still get sick i called Your name i screamed in pain but i sill get hurt i still feel sick my mind is confused things don't go like i think they should i want my way to be Your way but You heal as You so choose Your redemption is beyond comprehension Your way is definitely not my own break ... Read More

tape me up seal me good get me in the largest strait jacket you can find pad the locks throw away the keys swallow the combo wrap me up i need prevention, some intervention for my actions bring you pain my words destroying all the same i break the golden rule i speak when there's nothing nice to say i display the ever unkind i live the epitome of hurt all i do is hurt pass the grey duct tape my mouth so its ever sealed shut better yet cut some string sew this cursed thing sew those lips and lock ... Read More

i need the stomach punch i need the wind knocked out the wind of me, my pride, and i hit me. punch me. break me down. i need to breathe You in i need to breathe me out inhale all of You drink in Your spirit, exhale mine all out pour me out, please pour me out i'm letting go i'm breathing out i'm giving up i'm breathing out i surrender, i surrender i'm breathing surrender it's all got to go it's all coming out it's time to release to let it all out surrendering i am and breathing me out taking You in You're ... Read More

i've got no direction i can't find rewind i guess its time to fly just go with the flow to where i don't know i just want to grow... looking for pause but stuck in fast forward wishing for normal but meant to live abnormal you got your act together i can't seem to find my scene the stage is set the lines unknown the curtains drawn looks like it's time to just go i've only got one shot at this thing called life i get one chance no intermissions, no time outs, and not a single re-do i get one ... Read More

envious... oh so envious... lies...i'm lying to myself saying i am fine and alright but deep down i know... that i envy, envy, oh so envious i tell you that it's ok i say if you're happy then so am i lying, lying, lying to myself saying i am fine and alright when deep inside i know... that i envy, envy, envy you so much you got your act together while i'm searching for my own i wish you the best but i'm hoping the worst hypocrisy is my ever favorite verse lying, lying, lying to myself saying ... Read More

i wrote this during pastor davidson's message tonight. he was talking about being there for one another, about supporting those who are weak, those who are in need. he mentioned a silent scream and that got me thinking and i grabbed a half piece of paper and started writing this: they're falling, failing, and fearing they're broken and crying for help desperate for someone for one who will hear them and be by their side can you hear them? do you hear their silent screams? it grows louder, their silently ... Read More