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valedictorian speech

tim — Fri, 12 Jun 2009 14:16:42 +0000

june 12, 2009. this day only comes once.
there will never again be another june 12, 2009.
life is lived once. and only once.

faculty and staff. friends and family.
pastor davidson. mr cantrell.
pastor thomas. class of 2009.

the years. the months. the days. the hours, minutes and seconds that make up our lives have come together this evening to celebrate an event. an accomplishment. a transition. the transition from high school to what some would call real life. an accomplishment of finishing and enduring 4 years of high school. an event that signals the accomplishment and initiates the transition. an event that causes one to not only look forward to what lies ahead but also to look back at what has already taken place. i look back at good times and bad. times of laughter. times of tears. times of understanding. times of utter confusion. the times vary just as each and every individual in this room varies. but what is the point of these times. of these experiences. of these emotions. what is the point of it all.

a wise man wrote in a book called ecclesiastes about these varying times. he wrote about his search for meaning and the point of life. he searched for meaning in every imaginable way. he looked for meaning in money and wealth. he looked for it in pleasure. he looked to women. drinking. conquering. expanding his kingdom. he looked everywhere. after looking to the ends of the earth for meaning he has this to say at the end of it all.

“Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man. For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.”

the sole purpose and meaning for my existence is to serve and glorify my Creator and Savior. the Un-created One. the Maker of all things. nothing else makes any true sense. for me to do anything other than worship and obey the very being who created me out of nothing. and then to not only create me but to even acknowledge my existence and to go deeper than that and desire a relationship with me, His creation. He owes me nothing. i owe Him all that i am. my very being is owed to Him.

yet how often do i choose to ignore this reality. this truth. how many years of my life did i love and worship the game of basketball more than i did the One who created me and gave me the ability to play that game.
how many more tears have i shed over losing a game rather than in understanding the love and sacrifice Christ made for me. the same God that gives me freedom and choice is the same God that i choose to so often throw under the bus. i will be the first to admit that i fail. that i don’t always live according to my intended and created purpose. that i am selfish. that i am at times too lazy and too selfish to correctly worship and serve my Maker who died for me.
why God still loves me. why He bothers to involve Himself in my life. i can’t explain. God promises many things but He never promises us tomorrow. we are never guaranteed another day. how many days have i arrogantly lived and wasted. the last thing i want to do is waste my life. my one life. my one shot.

i have learned a lot of things over the last 4 years.
i have sat through many academic lessons. but the most important lessons i have learned have been those about life and how to live. how to not waste my life and my one shot at existence. i have learned how to make it through finals weeks. how to balance sports, friends, and still get projects in on time. how to fail and be knocked down and then get right back up again. how to ask for forgiveness. how to accept grace. how to love and be loved. how to admit i’m wrong. how to ask for advice.

i would like to thank pastor davidson for allowing this connection between church and school. for your compassionate nature that you show regardless of the person and situation. for the consistent lifestyle of Christ-likeness that you demonstrate.

pastor thomas for your honesty and transparency, for your willingness to listen. for genuinely caring and truly rejoicing with us through our blessings and crying with us in our valleys. i think i speak on behalf of my entire class when i say you have truly impacted each of our lives. thank you for encouraging the desire of truth and pursuit of Christ.

mother. for putting up with me. for all the time and energy you have sacrificed to make sure i was where i needed to be, to make sure i was fed and clothed properly. for making fun of me and my height even though you are shorter than me. for allowing me to make fun of you back. i don’t how often a mother and son get to share that type of open and transparent relationship filled with teasing yet the most sincere care. there is not enough time to properly thank and acknowledge you for everything you have given and done for me.

dad. you have worked tirelessly to make sure we have been provided for. you taught me since i can remember to think for myself. to not be a blind follower. to think, to reason out, to research, to decide for myself. you also taught me to learn from my mistakes and if at all possible to learn from the mistakes of others before having to learn from my own. thank you for teaching truth, for putting me in this school. for setting an example of the kind of father i want to be. i can only hope to grow up to be half the man you are.

class of 2009. we’ve made it through 4 years of high school together.
good times. fun times. not so fun and not so good times.
you each have had an effect and influence on who i am today. i’ve learned a lot from each and everyone of you. only by the grace and mercy of God have we made it thus far. and only by Him can we continue to make it. and continue to press on.

some words that have kept me in check, kept me in my place, and reminded me of who i am and what my purpose is are as follows.

live love.
breathe surrender.
with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

it is my desire to live love as Christ exemplified true selfless love.
to breathe surrender to the Creator of all things, completely given over to His authority and will. and to do so with reckless abandon holding nothing back.

yea…

tim — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 14:20:17 +0000

“we are now, and we will be in the future, only as intimate with God as we really choose to be.”

-j oswald sanders

so true.

my relationship with God is my responsibility.

i have no one else to blame but me.

yes, God still grows me, and must change me, but it is my choice whether or not i allow Him to.

it is up to me how much i will allow God to take over.

c.s. lewis puts it this way.

‘”‘Make no mistake,’ He says, ‘if you let me, I will make you perfect. The moment you put yourself in My hands, that is what you are in for. Nothing less, or other, than that. You have free will, and if you choose, you can push Me away. But if you do not push Me away, understand that I am going to see this job through. Whatever suffering it may cost you in your earthly life, whatever inconceivable purification it may cost you after death, whatever it costs Me, I will never rest, not let you rest, until you are literally perfect–until my Father can say without reservation that He is well pleased with you, as He said He was well pleased with me. This I can do and will do. But I will not do anything less.’”

i’m not sure what else to say other than.

yea. i’m not choosing very close right now. and i’m not letting Him do a whole lot.

out of rhythm

tim — Sun, 15 Mar 2009 19:03:23 +0000

God. my Creator. my Maker. all powerful.
me. human. created. not powerful at all.
it only makes sense to worship the Creator. the Maker.
but i find myself worshipping myself more than i do the One who even granted me the privilege and ability to worship or breathe at all.
but i find myself worshipping things, stuff, other relationships and food more.
Jesus says in the book of matthew that no one can serve two masters. He says that you will love one of them and hate the other.
there is no middle ground.
there is no in between.
it is either one or the other.
but i try anyway.
i try to serve my Master and Savior, the Creator of all things.
but i try to love myself and anything and everything just as much.
it doesn’t work.
it is wrong.
it makes no sense.
i can’t truly love God when i love me more.
i can’t truly say i love my Maker when i choose some thing or someone over His way.
can i say i love God and His truth if i check facebook more often than i read His Word? His very Word. His way and choice of communication with his creation and yet i’d rather twitter what i am doing at the moment.
my perspective. my priorities are out whack. out of sync.
i’m out of rhythm.
i’m not in the right flow.

Lord, i try to do exactly what You say is not possible.
i try to have it both ways. and that means i have chosen my way over Your way.
break me. again. and again. and again.
God do not let me wander from You.
i beg You to hold me close and to draw me near to You.
grab me and move me and do with me whatever You deem necessary.
don’t let me be so consumed with stuff.
don’t let me fall into the trap of thinking i deserve anything good i have.
don’t let me think this computer is mine.
God. Lord. empty me of me.
and when i start let me back i, and when i start fill back up with things other than You, empty me again.
God i can’t do it. i am too weak. i am too human.
i need You to take complete and total control.
Lord, Master, i am in awe and complete amazement of Your grace and mercy and love.
i am prone to wander, Lord i feel it.
wrap my soul and heart and being in Your chains.
may i live as doulos to You.
may i live love.
may i breathe surrender.
may i do so with reckless abandon.
may i hold nothing back.
may You have access to all that i am.

my story…

tim — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 05:48:06 +0000

so let’s start from the beginning.
january 5, 1991 is the day that i left my mothers womb and joined you all on this spinning sphere we call the earth.
fast forward 7 years.
christian family. went to church every sunday. listened to billy graham on the way to church every sunday morning. one of those mornings i was actually paying attention to what he had to say. i had the story of how to be saved a number of times. a sunday school teacher about a year before had even tried to make me pray a prayer of salvation. i somehow recall not particularly being fond of this lady and wanted nothing to do with here…i think i started crying and ran away but i could be wrong…anyways that morning what i head on the radio struck a chord. i knew i did bad things, we call it sin. i knew it and had no problem admitting that and the rest of the story sounded good to me, believe Jesus died for you, tell Him you are a sinner and want his free gift and you get to go to heaven and not hell. at the end of every billy graham radio program a song would be sung and the song “every knee shall bow, every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord.” whether you believe that or not it is the truth one day we will each bow and confess Him as Lord. the story of Jesus and the cross and this idea of a free gift ran through my mind the rest of the morning. and then that morning the pastor talked about salvation as well. somewhere in the middle of his message i remember clearly thinking i need to be saved, i need to be forgiven, i need Jesus to save me. i heavily contemplated praying right then and there with my eyes open in the middle of his sermon but i thought that would be rude and disrespectful, so i didn’t at that time…being the little kid that i was as soon as the service was over i got lost in playing with my friends and food and what have you…but that evening i couldn’t fall asleep and couldn’t stop thinking about being in hell forever so in my bed i cried, literally and cried out to be rescued. i told Jesus i was a sinner that i wanted him to be my Savior and that i believed He died for me. i prayed almost the same thing at least 5 times in a row i just kept saying it over and over again, Jesus i know i’m bad i want You to save me. the memory is fresh in my mind as if it were yesterday. fast forward to 5th and 6th grade. i was quite the bad little boy, but played a very good boy for most to see. i hung out with the wrong friends no doubt and was influenced heavily by them. from cussing, to dirty jokes, to just being mean and disrespectful i lived a life in complete contrast to that of truth. i was convicted of my actions on a daily basis, after every word, thought, or joke i often remember thinking why tim why. you know its wrong why are you doing it anyway. but i chose my “friends” over God and His way 6 days of the week. it wasn’t until one day one of my friends told me you have changed alot, i remember when you were all good and now you are just like us …i couldn’t deny it..it was true..i had no response. that statement haunted me.
it wasn’t until my friends left the school that i started to see some real growth in the right direction.
now the rest of my life up until this point seems like a whole different chapter in the respect that i can’t really break it down into a year by year experience, but rather i feel it almost as the beginning of my current stage in this journey of life. and much of this current stage began when i first starting blogging and can be seen over time through my posts.

i typed all that 2 days ago, and have been struggling to figure out how to conclude my story. but my story isn’t over yet. it feels more like it i just beginning. entering the “real” world soon after high school seems like starting all over from scratch.
and every day seems like a whole new start.
every day when i go to sleep at night and think of how much i have wasted.
of how little i was interested in God that day. or how today i seemed more in love with God than before and wonder why.
every message i hear screams the same thing to me.
He’s trying to teach me and so i often i acknowledge His truth but am either too lazy or too selfish to do anything about it.
be consumed with Me.
be drenched in my words i have given to you.
pray to Me. talk with Me.
follow Me intensely. with passion and desire.
be filled with Me.
enjoy Me.
be satisfied in Me.
yet here i am allowing myself to be consumed with basketball.
to be satisfied with television.
to not be intense and passionate about anything to the extent Christ is demanding.
instead i live a life of inconsistency.
one moment i am determined. i am sold out on being all about my Maker.
but apparently i really am not since moments later i will choose something meaningless over the God that made me and saved me.
its frustrating to know that i can somehow not be in awe of Him at all times.
i mean let’s think about this.
He made everything. every single thing. from nothing.
as if that were not enough, He bothered to love us and buy us back after we left Him.
i don’t know. it makes no sense to me. how i can not just follow His instructions.
let’s take this a step further. He not only wants to redeem us, He wants life to be enjoyed in Him. He wants what is best for us. He didn’t just die for us and say well there you go good luck with the rest of your life i gave you a ticket to heaven see ya when you die.
no, He wants to be involved and have a relationship with me.
my mind is blown.
my heart is bleeding guilt.
my soul is confused.
everything about me wonders why i can’t just do what makes sense.
why don’t i just live drenched and addicted to my Savior.
why i don’t live what i type at the end of every post.
–
live love.
breathe surrender.
with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

2009-2-8

tim — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 04:21:20 +0000

i haven’t blogged since last year. and i say that quite literally.
cheesy i know. bear with me here.
i haven’t blogged not because lack of content but lack of time and discipline to make myself do it.

tonight at church we had a testimony time and as one by one people stood and told their stories of being redeemed and their stories of how God has miraculously taken care of them i noticed the striking similarities yet vast contrast between each story.
so many stories of coming to the same realization.
so many stories of the same truth.
yet different stories all the same.
i realized i have never really typed my story out.
i have typed out portions, yes, and through my post over the years one could piece together parts of my story.
but seeing as just about a month ago i turned 18 i think i will attempt to tell my story in my next blog. but for now a brief update on my current life’s happenings.

a couple weeks ago i got my permit…again…it had expired…
my license test is scheduled for february 23rd bright and early at 8:20 in the am.
we made the playoffs finally!!!
this year our basketball team has clinched a playoff spot for the first time in my high school career. this is also the best record we’ve had since i have been on the team.
i’m stoked beyond words.
as of now i am leaning heavily towards attending cal state fullerton after highschool but i am still yet to here back from the uc’s i applied at.
now back to working on my story. should be up within the next day i am hoping, i’m doing too many other things while trying to write it. the one downside to dual screens is being able to try and view too many things at once.
–
live love.
breathe surrender.
with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

new years eve

tim — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 00:53:46 +0000

well.
the year of 2008 is about over.
i haven’t posted in a while.
partially due to basketball season having started, partially due to me being lazy, and partially due to me having a hard time to put things into words.
i feel like i have learned and grown alot this past yr.
but at the same time i feel like i have just continued to be inconsistent.
i still waste too much of my life.
i still treat my God like feces way too often, then turn around and say i love Him.
i know these struggles will never go away. and i know its a constant process of growing and becoming holy, but still i hate how i so often live.
i really don’t know how else to say it other than quoting paul when he says the things i want to do i don’t do and the things i don’t want to do those are the things i do.
and not to put paul on a pedestal or anything but he was pretty good at this christianity thing.
as discouraged as i get and as often as it seems like i will never live one moment correctly for my Maker it’s nice to know paul wasn’t perfect and still had flaws. it’s nice to know that david, who is described as a man after God’s own heart committed some of the most atrocious sins possible.
i’m not making excuses.
i’m not trying to create a cop out.
i’m attempting to view things realistically.
i’m trying to look at life through the lens of absolute truth.
so 2008 is gone.
it amazes me how people make such a big deal about the new year.
what makes today, tonight, and tomorrow morning so special.
woo hoo it’s a new year?
nothing feels different.
feels like any other day to me at least.
and i still have to continue my current year of school even though it is a new calendar year. maybe that is what bothers me the most about it.
maybe i’m just being a pessimist.
i have no problem with celebrating the new upcoming year, i just think we go a bit overboard sometimes. but at the exact same time i would love to be in new york city, standing in time square when the ball drops tonight. to experience all the energy and excitement.
call me a hypocrite. cause i am.
i don’t want to be. but i’m not going to lie to myself and say i’m not either.
i still will end up staying up till midnight.
i will still tell people happy new year im sure.
but i just gotta wonder in the grand scheme of things is it really that big of a deal.
why don’t we celebrate each new day as we do each new year?
we are not even promised the next second let alone the next day.
but hey let’s celebrate the possibility of a new 365 days, and the 365 we just finished up and will never get back.
i suppose the whole idea of celebrating a new year, or blogging about it as i am now does serve some purpose.
if it causes one to evaluate the life and year they have already lived.
i can see good in that.
if it causes one to wonder about how much time and how much life he has already wasted and thrown away.
i can see good in that.
i’ve wasted far too much already.
but i should be evaluating that every moment not once a year.
i’ve rambled enough.
i don’t always make sense.
this will be my last post for the year 2008.
but hey have a happy new year.
try not to waste the time you are given. it is not easy in the least.
i wish i could say its easy look at me i’ve done it. but that is far from the truth.
i’m the biggest waster of life and time there is.
and yet God redeems.
–
live love.
breathe surrender.
with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

clean room. 2008-12-13

tim — Sun, 14 Dec 2008 02:32:04 +0000

i cleaned my room today.
it was not necessarily overly messy per se.
but it was quite cluttered.
i had papers everywhere.
its funny how things start off clean and gradually become a huge mess.
i found an invitation to my friends graduation from june…just as an example of time compounding the problem.
at the moment everything has a place. and everything is in that place.
(now i’m sure it could yet be much cleaner but hey it’s pretty decent right now.)
but i am almost sure that i a week or two it will be on the border of disaster again.
papers from school or colleges.
sweatshirts and jerseys.
ipod and phone.
water and gatorade bottles.
you name it, it will be spread somewhere within my already crowded room.
i hate to sound or go all over spiritualizing a clean room.
but its easy to let our life get cluttered.
i let other things take priority and before you know it i haven’t read my bible in a week. or i haven’t had the same consistent deep prayer life i know i need and so often crave.
just a thought.
i have pics up on facebook.
working on getting them up here but technical difficulties are intervening at the moment.
–
live love.
breathe surrender.
with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

wish list of ‘08

tim — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 04:03:57 +0000

i feel a bit selfish making a christmas list, but the other day my mother asked me what i wanted and then i laughed…i have expensive tastes…well here it is, my christmas wish list of sorts…

muchos dineros:

01. red scarlet

+ lenses, battery, monitor system, etc.

02. canon 5d mark II

+ lenses, extra length battery, etc.

03. 15″ 2.53 GHz macbook pro with 4 gigs of ram

+ carrying case, sleeve, bag, etc.

menos dineros:

04. 20 inch lcd display (so i can run dual monitors again)
05. 500 gig external hard drive (preferably a western digital or another good brand)
06. american eagle gift cards
07. itunes gift cards
08. my fat bird t-shirt (size small, organic made in usa)

no dineros:

09. get accepted into any or all of the following: UCI, UCSD, CSUF. Chapman.
10. make cif playoffs

i think that’s about it.
i am continually reminded of how blessed i am.
of how much stuff i am privileged with.
the fact that everything i have is a God given gift.
everything we are allowed is only by the vast mercy of Christ.
–
live love.
breathe surrender.
with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

100 things to do…

tim — Sun, 23 Nov 2008 04:47:41 +0000

in no particular order, 100 random things i would like to do or have happen before i die….

001. bic my head
002. get carvings on my head
003. write a children’s book (and have it published)
004. burn coal
005. get married
006. sky dive
007. bungee jump
008. get my drivers license
009. go on the amazing race or the mole
010. get buff
011. become king of america
012. start my own company
013. graduate college….maybe…
014. go at least 3 days without speaking
015. eat at least 2 4×4’s in one sitting
016. kill a cow
017. eat that cow
018. go to south africa
019. live in new york city for at least 6 months
020. learn to drive stick
021. write a song/poem that gets published
022. drive a race car at least 200 mph
023. hang glide
024. discover a number and name it the wright number…pun intended…
025. fly on air force one
026. write an article for a big newspaper
027. drive the tumbler from batman
028. wrestle a bear…and win…
029. direct a full length movie
030. film a full length movie
031. edit a full length movie
032. get an iphone
033. have my face be on the first page of a google search
034. compete in the olympics
035. blow something up…like a semi or something…
036. snowboard
037. break down a door with my shoulder
038. shoot an rpg
039. break the internet
040. work at apple
041. throw a pc off the top of a tall building
042. light a pc on fire then throw it off the top of a tall building
043. own a chipmunk
044. fly an airplane
045. play in the pavilion (ucla)
046. play in a cif playoff game
047. defy gravity
048. go to a ncaa final four championship game
049. sit in the student section for a college basketball game
050. go to a nba championship game
051. drive on the autobahn
052. always be in basketball playing shape
053. still be able to hang in pick up games at the park past the age of 45
054. go to israel
055. sell a design for a lot of money
056. sell a photograph for a lot of money
057. get paid to edit a video
058. own a canon 5d mark II
059. own a red camera
060. own a mac pro, a macbook pro, and 2 cinema displays..make that 4….
061. get a coffee from every starbucks in seatle
062. get cancer and beat it, then beat it again for good measure
063. create a pill that gets rid of acne forever
064. be in times square for new years
065. design my own house and build it
066. catch a bunch of fire flies, at least 27, and put them in a jar
067. not wear a tux or suit in my wedding
068. forever get rid of the fonts comic sans, and papyrus i want to physically destroy them forever
069. watch a full season of 24 in 24 hours stopping only to go the bathroom
070. finish a newspaper crossword without using the internet….
071. be a part of an improv everywhere
072. make a video that gets on youtube’s featured video list
073. get a million views on a video
074. get 300 hits on my website in one day that aren’t all me
075. have a post from my site get on the front page of digg
076. throw a big rock at a glass house
077. pay over 100 bucks for a steak and have it be the best steak ever
078. weigh a 170 pounds and not be fat
079. make a documentary film that truly affects change in people’s lives
080. be able to say i have completely read every book i own…well…at least come close…
081. write a review for a restaurant and get paid for it, also have them pay for my meal
082. start a trend
083. study abroad for a semester of college
084. hit a buzzer beater game winning shot
085. fill up at least half of my passport
086. get a block where i pin it on the backboard
087. throw a legit alley-oop
088. jab stab right. dribble left. left hand dunk middle of the lane with authority over 2 guys.
089. have my hair cut with a blow torch
090. learn to draw well
091. bowl an almost perfect game
092. get a triple double
093. write a million dollar check to my church or a missionary
094. blow a bubble with gum
095. go to cupertino
096. have canon send me prototypes of their cameras before they are released
097. live love
098. breathe surrender
099. with reckless abandon
100. hold nothing back

my fat bird

tim — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 05:18:25 +0000

i have put my fat bird on t-shirts now.

they can be ordered here: http://www.cafepress.com/myfatbird

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live love.

i don’t always read my bible

tim — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 05:50:19 +0000

i am bad at doing “devotions.”
i struggle to read my bible everyday.
i often fail to sit and be immersed in absolute truth.
too many times when i go to lay my head down to sleep i realize i left something out of my day.
now for me its hard at times to sit and read my bible.
i get distracted. i find something else to do. i get too busy.
i all of sudden remember i have a project that needs to be pounded out.

i do a poor job of planning a set time to read.
part of me is very structured and needs order very much.
there are times the files on my computer must all be in proper folders etc.
then there are times my desktop is littered with random files.
i take a whole saturday to clean my room and throw away trash.
i take every and any way i can to make sure i don’t have to do dishes.

i am inconsistent.

i dislike math and equations and the necessity of the order of operations.
yet i enjoy the way a well written sentence is structured.
the careful choice of words, the precise positioning of adverbs and adjectives.
at times i do not appreciate the teaching or preaching of the Word.
yet i love when a conversation suddenly turns to the One and His truth.
i love the way of conversations. interruptions of questions and comments and musings.

i adore times of prayer.
prayer is probably my most consistent area.
when i am walking. sitting. thinking.
even shooting a basketball early in the morning by myself.
these are times when i am most comfortable.
times when i talk with my Savior.
it is not the prayer to open or close a church service.
it is me telling my God everything and anything.
asking why. asking how. asking for help.
crying. praising. thanking.
praying doesn’t have to be a certain time limit.
there are no times when i am not permitted to pray.
in fact we are told to pray without ceasing.

He is always listening.
my thoughts, before i know it have become a prayer.
what started as me contemplating the why’s of this life finds me standing in awe of the Creator and asking why He bothered with me.
why, when i treat Him as trash He still forgives me.
why, when i am more in love with myself He still loves me.

prayer is my escape of sorts.
it’s when i feel closest to God.
but also farthest.
it’s hard to be dishonest when the God who knows all is listening.
but it shows me for who i am. and that shows me to be far away.
yet my Savior embraces me and tells me it’s ok. says i forgive you.

i am in no way saying prayer is a substitute for reading your bible.
the times i have spent genuine time in the bible have been amazing.
it’s just that i have noticed for some reason i seem to thrive more in prayer.
i’m not sure if that’s wrong.
maybe i am even farther from God than i think because of that.
i’m sure i still do not pray as much as i should.
i know i need to be spending even more time with my Maker.
when i don’t read my bible i do feel like something is wrong and missing.
even the days i read just to read are better than the days where no reading occurs.
i am no where near having this figured out or together.
i fail daily. second by second i’m sure.

i just seem to connect more often through prayer and conversation. especially conversation with my Savior.
but i think my thinking that is often a downfall that leads me to think it’s ok to not read as often.
i know i need to be in the bible so much more.
it is easier for me to type this than to sit and read my bible sometimes.
maybe rather than write this now i should be reading.
i’m really not sure.
i got a lot to work on.
there is a lot i don’t know and even more i do not understand.
but i do know that when i am just talking with my God i am most at peace.
yet most at war.
most comfortable and at the same time most broken.
it’s weird. it’s refreshing.
it’s uplifting and humbling at the same time.
it doesn’t make any sense, but it is the only thing that even remotely makes sense.
but loving your enemies, turning the other cheek, losing your life to get it, dying to truly live, doesn’t seem to make sense either.
i really don’t get it all. but i think it’s ok. but i also think it’s not to a certain respect.

for as often as i tease “random” jenkins, i sure write randomly.
forgive me if i wasted your time.

God forgive me.
i go against everything You are.
i love You because You loved me first.
i’m sorry for loving me more.
fix me.
thanks for being God and in control.
–
live love.

bloggage?

tim — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 18:35:08 +0000

considering the lack of bloggage (did i just create a new word?) lately here’s a quick update on my life.
friday was my last day of school, i have now officially completed my junior year of high school.
that night i got to see my friends and classmates graduate from high school.
the next day was the wedding of james and renae. i had the honor of filming of it and enjoyed it very much.

as of about 10 minutes ago i am all registered up for basic drawing this summer at santa ana college. i need to learn me to draw so that i can learn me to graphic design one day.

basketball practice later today and two games this week. a good way to kick off the summer if you ask me, playing the best sport on God’s green earth.

random post. for sure. but still a post none the less.
–
live love.
tsylt.

pictures from the district of columbia

tim — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 15:18:48 +0000

click read more to view the picture slideshows.
there are four of them on the page, feel free to pause them and watch in whatever order or way you so desire.

ﾠ

i’m back

tim — Thu, 29 May 2008 13:39:28 +0000

last night i got back from my class trip to the district of columbia.
it was more than fun.
it was inspiring.
it was moving.
it was humbling.
it was more fun.
at times it was tiring from lack of adequate sleep but it was all worth it.
unfortunately on the first day my video camera stopped working properly so rather than deal with the frustration of it working then not working i just put it away.
at first i was disappointed.
there were so many cool footage to be taken and just so much i was envisioning a serious and very fun video.
but everything happens for a reason and God is good all the time and knows more about life and things like that than i do.
so it was no big deal.
hopefully in the next few days or so i will be able to get some pictures from jenny and other people and i’ll post some up here.
(i didn’t bring a camera just my video camera and that one went mia)
more about the trip to come in future blogs.

sidenote: i wish i had a lap top to bring with me, hotels had free wifi, i coudl have blogged daily, but again oh well…

live love.
live doulos.

the superior breakfast beverage

tim — Tue, 20 May 2008 06:37:20 +0000

orange juice is indeed the superior breakfast beverage.
there is no doubt in my mind this is true.
in fact there are times when orange juice is superior even when not a breakfast beverage.
some will argue milk is better.
but milk hurts my stomach when i drink it.
i love minute maid with calcium.

–
live love.
live doulos.
with reckless abandon.

no me gusta

tim — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 05:18:45 +0000

this post is partially for renae because she said i needed to write a new post so she could comment some more.
but really i just want to say i am sick of the current look on my site here.
sorry to any of you who like it, but i’m no longer in like with it.
no me gusta la look de mi site. (spanish happens to be my worst grade out of all my classes by the way, and yet it is one of my favorites, much more fun to learn spanish than geometry or chem…those things called numbers hurt my head…)
but due to my inconsistency and just life in general who knows when i will have a look i like…or the time to tweak a look so i like it…
and if you left a comment asking for something of mine in my will as far as i can tell they all should be cool and good to go. if not i’ll let you know i suppose.
ok i’m out.
gonna get some sleep.

post script.
james, correct away as you see fit.
–
live love.
live love with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

in the event that i should perish from the earth

tim — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 03:57:05 +0000

in light of my lack of capability to swim i have decided it prudent to write a will.
i do not own very many things but this so far is my list of items and who shall be receiving them.

1. my imac. this will be offered to my church under the direction of spencer bales and james ashton. if they deem my imac as no longer useful for the church it then will go to my brother david wright.

2. my four gig red second generation ipod nano will be going to my very good friend angie ruiz.

3. my stereo system. (the cd player on it no longer works) goes to the most awesome sub ever john makari.

4. my tell someone you love them shirt can be fought over by tracy loi and bryant trinh.

5. my external hard drive and final cut express goes to my fellow video editor james ashton.

6. my apple hat shall go to pastor matt.

7. my domain name unsoundtransient will in the event that i am no longer living be transfered over to nick lokker.

8. my video camera shall be given to eric lokker.

9. my portion of lumpia goes to kyle mosier. (to explain basically whenever my mom makes lumpia he wants how ever much i wold have eaten.)

10. my money shall be distributed in thirds. one third of my total funds shall be given to the tech ministry at my church, another third shall be directed to the general fund of my church and the last portion shall go to the missions program.

if there is anything else that i may possess that you desire in the event of my death, please comment on what that might be and i shall do my best to update this will as i deem fit. please do not feel left out if nothing was left to you, many of these came by request via first come first serve and honestly i just don’t have that much stuff.

i must end with this that the stuff i do have i am extremely grateful for.
and i realize that as an american i have so much more stuff than the majority of the world.

whyaretitlessohardtocomeup withsometimesandcanimake thisoneanylonger.

tim — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 03:06:50 +0000

i’m sitting here attempting to write.
attempting to make sense of the thoughts that flood my mind.
thoughts that run into each other and produce more thoughts.
i almost feel as if i’m trying too hard to “blog.”
too hard to come up with something meaningful to say.
trying to come up with something that is fresh and new.
something that isn’t about hypocrisy. balance. inconsistency.
seems that’s all i ever talk about.
seems like i always struggle with the same thing.
is that just how it is?
is balance and being inconsistent just always going to part of this thing called life?
or am i just failing miserably.
do i just not get it.
can i not overcome?
or maybe i can and im just too full of myself.
maybe i don’t trust God enough.
–
i have begun to realize that i depend on me way too much.
i played 3 hours of basketball at the park on thursday and again on friday.
i play with higgins at mile square all the time.
these two days we brought some guys who had either never played there or very little. i felt like i needed to do too much.
i only really trusted higgins.
and as a result i played very poorly.
higgins on the other hand was able to get every one involved and these guys we brought with us played very well.
i need to quit thinking i can do it on my own.
i need to learn to trust other people.
we were created to live a dependent life.
not an independent one.
we were made to live in community with each other.
to lean on one another.
to learn from each other.
and even more so with the Creator.
we were not made to live independently from Him.
we were made to live in total and complete dependence on Him.
why is it so hard for me and i would dare say humanity in general to live in complete dependence?
everything about our culture seems to revolve around the individual.
around doing things your way.
around being self sufficient.
i fail at being dependent because i am about me.
because i am self centered.
because i am more consumed with me than i am with my Savior.
–
Father, i have failed.
i have failed miserably. i am too alive in my own self.
kill self Lord. destroy it. may my will be burned and replaced with Yours.
teach me dependence.
rid me of this lie that i am to be independent.
burn and utterly destroy everything about me that is not glorifying to You.
do not let me settle.
do not let me cop out.
i don’t get why You love me.
why you bother with me.
i really don’t get why about anything.
but thanks. thank you for being God.
for being big. for being above it all.
for loving me.
may i be consumed with You.
i’m sick of screwing up.
of failing to do as You instruct.
of thinking and acting like i know more than You.
forgive me Lord.
i beg for forgiveness.
i beg for Your everlasting mercy.
i beg for change.
i beg that i would be changeable.
i beg that i would be Yours.
–
tsylt

post of a blog thought

tim — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 05:35:59 +0000

it has been 18 days since my last post. thought. blog.
whatever you so choose to call it.
this is essentially just to say hey i’m still alive.
i still know this site exists.
i haven’t forgotten about it.
i actually have had quite a few things go through my mind but i haven’t quite got it figured out enough for a post.
granted most of my thoughts up here are spur of the moment and that i never will have it all figured out.
so maybe i just need to sit and start writing.
but not right now.
perhaps soon.
and even then soon is very relative.
well i’ve wasted enough of your time i’m sure with this meaningless post of a blog thought.

tell someone you love them before the day ends.
–
live. love.
live love.
live love with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

going green…

tim — Wed, 05 Mar 2008 06:44:24 +0000

only as far as the color of this blog.
thinking of rolling with this look for a little while.
it’s pretty simple and right now that’s kinda what i want.
i have a few themes up my sleeve that have huge potential,
but they will never be anything until i actually take some time to learn how to do this css and php jazz.
well that’s that i suppose.
if you don’t like how it looks then cool.
if you do well i don’t know what is wrong you…
just kidding…i’ll probably hate this look within the next 48 hours if not sooner…
links, archives, etc are located at the very bottom.
for a real post read reckless abandon.

tsylt
live love.
live love with reckless abandon.

it’s been a while

tim — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 04:05:33 +0000

i need to write.
i haven’t blogged in a long while.
i need to get back to some consistency in this, as God knows i am inconsistent as can be and i hate that about how i live.

i have been sick for about a week and a half now.
being sick is lame.
i was sick during christmas break too.
up until this christmas break i almost never got sick, maybe once or twice an entire yr and in a 3 month period i have managed to get ridiculously sick twice.

the other day i made a decision.
it is actually i kinda interesting one at that.
i decided to have a senior of high school. (Lord willing)
back in november i decided i wanted to attempt to graduate early.
so after some discussion with my parents i decided to make an attempt at it and go for it. well i have decided to not graduate early. due to my deciding to attempt to graduate early i was behind in taking sats, filling out apps, financial aid etc etc etc.
also i kept having second thoughts about getting out now and i kept wrestling with it in my head almost every day. so wednesday i spent the afternoon praying, thinking, and taking a nap.(naps are most beneficial, that may be a whole other blog in itself)
after waking from my nap, i grabbed pen and paper and wrote down what i was thinking. these are some of the things i wrote.
i am not ready as a person for college.
i have proven to myself i am not ready because of my lack of doing the research and work necessary to get into a school that would be the right choice for me.
and the schools i did have in my mind i would have no shot at getting in this late in the game.
do i really want to just get out of high school to go to a junior college and kinda float through this thing of life and college?
why am i trying to grow up so fast?
i realized i only get 4 yrs in my entire life to play basketball at the competitive level that is high school sports.
do i want to sell my one last yr of that out just to be doing general ed in some local community college?
(nothing against community college, but i want something more and bigger in life than that)
well that explains that i suppose.

now for the state of my site…
i’m back to my old look, which i have quickly grown to hate with a passion it almost seems. unfortunately there are not enough hours in the day for sports, school, church, homework, and spending 3-4 hours messing with the css and php files of a halfway decent wordpress theme…so until i do get some time to mess with it i guess i’ll leave it as is, but you never know, i’m just inconsistent enough to do something stupid.

well that turned into an update on my life…possibly another post later on tonight…no guarantees though.

live.
love.
live love.
live love as Jesus lived love.
psalm 8:3-4

working on it…

tim — Sat, 16 Feb 2008 04:57:53 +0000

not the best looking site at the moment i know.
i have some ideas for what i want it to look like and what functions i want, but i need to learn quite a bit more as far as key fields and css and php go.
so i think for now this will hold me over.
relatively simple but i think it gets the job done.
and don’t be surprised if i’m constantly changing the look every day or so, and don’t be surprised if i don’t change the look either.
i’m inconsistent remember…but iim working on it. both being consistent and how this website looks…kinda go hand in hand.

live.
love.
live love.
live Christ.

bear with me.

tim — Mon, 11 Feb 2008 07:01:20 +0000

i am trying to find a new look for my site here. please bear with me as i play around with different looks and designs.

1-01-08

tim — Tue, 01 Jan 2008 08:01:11 +0000

it’s a new year.
let’s see what happens huh.

i feel like i should be posting something like i don’t know.
you get what i mean, and if not then oh well.

happy new year.

live.
love.
live love.
live christ.

the list 83.

tim — Mon, 31 Dec 2007 07:17:37 +0000

1. i do not like marshmallows.
2. i have an immense fear of being surrounded by water..pool,lake, ocean etc…
3. have noticed clothing companies are beginning to make their size smalls really big.
4. clowns freak me out.
5. i hate sit ups.
6. and dislike running more than about three-fourths mile.
7. i don’t like dirt.
8. or being dirty.
9. i watch mythbusters .
10. and the food network.
11. i often eat to fast.
12. and touch my face too much.
13. want go to chapman university.
14. and visit new york city.
15. and make a stop motion video.
16. i use aveeno lotion.
17. and old spice for deodorant.
18. drink black coffee.
19. otherwise it is a peppermint mocha.
20. am a clean freak.
21. i take 2 showers a day minimum(typically).
22. subconsciously i scratch my head. often it seems.
23. hoping to redesign this site at least 24 more times.
24. don’t like christmas music(the overplaying of it)
25. i want to read more.
26. live more consistently.
27. live in balance.
28. use a red one camera.
29. waste less time.
30. i find “lol” to be very annoying.
31. i want to completely shave my head.
32. want to learn to draw better.
33. want to work for apple.
34. greatly enjoy vitamin water.
35. and steak.
36. write a children’s book. (might be easier than say a novel)
37. hate microsoft.
38. i love sleep too much.
39. i think platypuses are phenomenal.
40. do not like the disney channel.
41. jeans. flip flops. polo.
42. i like the numbers 11 and 24.
43. the number 11 is the same forwards, backwards, and upside down.
44. i used to cut my own hair.
45. was told i needed glasses in 7th grade. wore them for 4 months then never again. have passed all my vision test since then just fine.
46. i had 5 wisdom teeth pulled. i typed that correctly. 5.
47. 3 musketeer bars and twix top all other candy bars.
48. have read half of uncle tom’s cabin.
49. i am half pacific islander(filipino) and half white.
50. i am not half asian
51. own one belgium soccer jersey and it is about 3 sizes too big.
52. own one nba jersey and it is about a size too small.
53. know at least 3 other tims
54. do not believe in capitalization. (for the most part.)
55. had braces.
56. am very thankful for running water.
57. am ok with waking up early
58. don’t drink milk. it hurts my stomach.
59. wear size 8 and half in shoes.
60. will respond to jim. jim-bo. doug. and t-dub. and wright.
61. my middle name is dizon.
62. i have trouble winking.
63. i enjoy acting.
64. i have my permit.
65. wendy’s is my favorite fast food place.
66. i love pasta and italian food.
67. i only have 3 keys.
68. i am starting to wear hats more often.
69. love ironwood. except that it is desert. not a big fan of desert.
70. i type poorly.
71. i have been to belgium twice.
72. i like the color brown. and red. and blue. and sometimes green.
73. and black. white too.
74. i do not like math.
75. or geometry.
76. sometimes i do not like science.
77. i like history.
78. and english.
79. and bible class.
80. i like it when the dentist clean my teeth.
81. i like the mountains.
82. i get scared going up and down the windy skinny roads.
83. i think 83 is enough.

jeans. flip flops.

tim — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 07:17:14 +0000

jeans. flip flops.
a favorite combination of mine.

i am currently sneezing.
it actually hurts sometimes.
cough drops work wonders.
not a fan of being sick.
eric lokker i don’t know how you do it.
but i’m sure there is something to learn from it.
just right now i’m not sure what that is.

hopefully some better posts soon.

live.
love.
live love.
live christ.

12.28.2007.

tim — Fri, 28 Dec 2007 18:48:17 +0000

i think i am sick.
at least on the verge of becoming sick.
my throat hurts. cough drops are my new best friend.
starting to get congested. not fun.

anyways.
go get a gravatar.
it will let you have a spiffy or not so spiffy image to go with your comments.
~i think nick at least will like it.~

bob has a sweet new site design for ersendaam. i absolutely love it.

some quick links i have found interesting or amusing this last week.

flip: flips your text upside down.
iphone proposal: guy proposes with an iphone.
ok…: 70 yr. old lady spends 3 days in a walmart.

the year of 2007 is almost over.

maybe on new year’s i’ll have a better post of some kind. maybe even a list. who knows.

love.

post script.

i love bob. and stealing stuff from him. thank you bob.

merry christmas

tim — Tue, 25 Dec 2007 18:21:11 +0000

well today is december 25, the day that we call christmas and take time to celebrate and reflect on the birth of our Savior.

a time we typically spend with family and the giving and receiving of gifts.
Jesus was the most amazing gift ever given and for that i am truly thankful to have received that gift.

and now taking a cue from james’s blog a tiny update on my christmas break.

-paces…some of you know i am attempting to graduate early by taking paces(some curriculum thing) well out of 12 books i need to have finished by the years end(school year, not ‘07 thankfully) i have completed 1 and am almost done with 2 so i got some work to do yet..

-basketball…it’s going, enjoying it, love the game, love my team, i hate losing with a passion and am very easily ticked off and frustrated but i just hate to lose. i don’t have a problem with anyone i just hate to lose so don’t be mad if i yell at you or seem mad cause i probably am…

-driving…i have my permit and love driving. whether it be in the beast (’93 ford escort wagon in throw up color) or the civic i enjoy it, too much probably.
i had the opportunity to drive to victorville and back yesterday so that was a whole new experience of freeway driving and i’m still alive so that is a good sign. i may be driving up to palm springs on wednesday as well so the more the merrier as they say…

-presents…we all love them, don’t even deny it. so here is what i got. i am a nerd, geek, techie or whatever else you want to call it but yes i am, i did actually ask for the presents i got.
-3 gigs of ram for my imac
-photoshop elements 4.0 for mac (i had a pice of junk version my friend let me borrow before)
-10 mini dv tapes (they get expensive trust me)

if you think you got better presents than me, then i dare you to comment what you possibly could have gotten that was better than my list.

love to you all.

live love.
live Christ.

merry christmas.

post script

my mother is making lumpia and ham. so good, so tasty. “are you a fan of delicious flavor”

uno mas listo

tim — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 01:48:53 +0000

about two weeks ago just about every store pretty much everywhere began playing christmas music.
please do not take this the wrong way.
i am not a grinch.
i do not hate christmas.
i love christmas.
just not christmas music…
see there are only so many christmas songs out there about oh i dont know only 25 of them.
and then there are about say 45 different versions of each of those songs by every singer out there.
some christmas songs i enjoy but for the most part i get tired of them.
i feel this way more so with the secular than the sacred christmas songs.
you go to the mall and every store is playing just about the exact same song at almost the same time.
walk out of one store in the middle of a song and as you walk into the next and lo and behold its the exact same song by a different person.

think what you will, but that’s just me.

on a more upbeat note, some things i do love about christmas.

1. people are typically a little nicer and a little more generous
2. the spirit of giving and wishing the best for one another
3. a whole day is set to honor the birth of the Savior
4. getting stuff, not gonna lie i do enjoy it
5. no school
6. peppermint mocha from starbucks
7. christmas starbuck cups
8. plenty of sports on t.v. to watch
9. brings the year to an end on a generally positive note
10. reminds me of just how blessed i really am

so i’ve written two lists in a row now.
not sure if that’s a good or bad thing.
i’d wish you all a merry christmas but seriously now, it’s still november.
love to you all.

people i’m thankful for

tim — Thu, 22 Nov 2007 20:24:45 +0000

i think we do a pretty good job of being thankful for stuff.
i’m thankful for tons of stuff from food to my mac to running water to vitamin water.
but something i have come to be even more thankful for is people.
for the community God has put me in.
for the huge safety net of people i have.
i know i have people in my life who want what is best for me.
people who will tell me the truth even though i may not want to hear it.
God didn’t leave us alone on this journey of life and for that i am truly thankful.
thankful that i get to live life with people and enjoy this journey with them.

we are told to count our blessings. to make them known. so i’m going to do just that.
in no particular order these are people who have impacted my life and for whom i am thankful.

1. my mom and dad- they have given me so much from their time to money to advice, i could not imagine better parents
2. mi hermano- even though things can get rough i love him to death
3. pastor matt- i don’t even know where to start, thanks for everything
4. eric – i can always go to him with anything, some of the best conversations i’ve had were with this guy
5. the leavells - i love you guys so much and am so thankful for what you do
6. angie- for listening, for laughing, for making me smile, for being you
7. tracy loi- my secretary who stole my yo-yo
8. tim higgins- who knows what i would do after a loss if it weren’t for you
9. aaron chidester - good talks man
10. bryant- attempting to write something worth while at starbucks with me
11. matt markulis- thanks for the talks, and the ipod too
12. bob - inspires so much creativity and out of the box thinking
13. biz- your awesome
14. coach- for all your time and energy you spend coaching
15. spencer- for teaching me sound and design and for all the rides
16. chelsea- for “making” me film youth activities, i am forever indebted to you for that
17. james - my fellow wordpress blogger and video guy
18. nick- for making ideas reality, t-shirts, the fort, etc.
19. hillary phan- for pointing out my faults
20. cesar- i miss you dude
21. katie collier- for missing marshall with me
22. lori- we cleaned bathrooms in a foreign country, how awesome was that
23. “marshall” mike ames- the few times i’ve had to listen to you have meant so much
24. jae- probably the absolute nicest and most generous guy i know
25. jonny lopez- we still need to work on that children’s book

i’m sure this is not a complete list but just the first 25 to come to mind.

and i leave you with some truth:
“if it weren’t for your friends, you wouldn’t have any friends”

love to you all and happy thanksgiving.

“um…”

tim — Mon, 29 Oct 2007 05:16:12 +0000

“um…”
what most people say or mutter or verbalize or what have you when not sure exactly what to say or how to respond.

well i don’t know what to title this so…
um…here it is…

i now have pictures up. much nicer way or presenting them than flickr.
to view them (at least at the time being, i’ll explain shortly) scroll on down to the bottom and click the link called amazingly enough pictures.

i say at the time being because i may be changing themes in the near future…or i may not…

well to those of you “faithful readers” (james understands)
thanks for taking the time to see what runs through my head.

love to you all.

the beast.

tim — Sat, 13 Oct 2007 05:29:22 +0000

i haven’t posted in a while, so i guess good a time as any to just get something new up here.
let’s see…

i’ve driven a bit more now, and liking it a lot.
it’s getting a little easier and more comfortable each time.
i drove my mom’s ‘93 ford escort wagon.
the beast.
one day my beast i hope.
my dad has a civic, but who wants a civic when you can have the beast.

november 10.
first basketball practice.
so pumped.
excited.
and any other words that describe elaborate joy and excitement fit here.

new casting crowns cd is amazing.
totally digging it.

watched the nooma video “store” by rob bell.
thoroughly enjoyed the filming, very creative.
i liked it.
but more than that.
it was powerful as usual.
it would be a whole other post to talk about it here, and im too tired to think straight enough to do any justice to the message that was brought.
i would strongly recommend the viewing it.

and last but definitely not least.
spam.com
amazing.
enough said.

i want a spam t-shirt.

thanks for reading the ramblings of my mind.
love to you all.

big idea…bigger God

tim — Sat, 29 Sep 2007 04:31:34 +0000

random idea i just came up with.
well.
sort of.
not really.
i’ve had the idea floating in my head.
parts of it came from spencer.

how awesome would it be, if i could open (with the help of some friends of course) a studio for recording, mixing, editing, audio and video and graphics.
like have a band come in, record and mix for them.
shoot and edit their music video.
design their album covers, webiste, whatever.
and not just bands, but whoever for any of those things.

unsoundtransient studios.
unsoundtransient productions.

hm.
i like the sound of that.

at the moment such a place only exist on my imac in my room, which actually isn’t that bad for recording audio in.

i envision something stupendous.
top of the line equipment.
mac pros…cinema displays…best mics…you name it…

but even better.
it could be a non profit.
forget money.
money is only needed for the necessities.
life isn’t about money.
and besides i would be having too much fun doing stuff i love to do and would do for free anyway.
just charge enough to cover the basic expenses.

be able to do stuff for churches and missionaries at no cost.
i would love to serve those people, particularly missionaries at no cost.
they sacrifice so much, and don’t have the time to make high quality support videos and the such.

its just an idea.
but God is big.
bigger than this idea.

improv

tim — Thu, 20 Sep 2007 03:46:21 +0000

some buddies and i managed to make up some songs while at ironwood.
improv.
spur of the moment.
free style.

but i like to film everything.
here’s the first three songs in the order that they occurred.

“aveeno”

“deoderant”

“text messages”

a hopefully more polished and edited video of the other activities is to come as well.

hmm.

tim — Wed, 22 Aug 2007 22:35:33 +0000

…i just got my permit today!!
pretty sweet.
i managed to only miss three questions.
(i figured i’d end up missing eight.)
only downside is my first behind the wheel with an instructor isn’t until september 28.
so no driving still until after that session.
but it is all good.
love to you all.

a little late…

tim — Mon, 30 Jul 2007 02:17:25 +0000

i’m home now.
actually i have been home since tuesday night.
wednesday i felt terrible.
was dehydrated.
got an iv.
had a headache all day until thursday afternoon.
since then i have felt fantastic.

vbs at my church just finished today.
last i heard 8 kids became followers of Christ.
nothing much more to add.
there are lots of pictures from belgium floating around facebook for you facebookers.

this is completely random, but is something i am excited about.
sometime in the next week, i should be receiving free of charge an almost completely working video camera. the camera does everything but record. but im excited cause now i will have a camera to use to drop video to my computer, and wont have to be borrowing one all the time and can just take the tape home.

i feel almost stupid writing this.
this isn’t me.
it’s not how i typically write.
but i have been told when you have writers block you just write anyway.
so that’s all this is.
hopefully my post get back to normal pretty soon here.
but for now this will have to suffice.

“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.”
-c.s. lewis (mere christianity)

love.
live love.

almost home…

tim — Mon, 23 Jul 2007 17:39:56 +0000

leaving tommorrow morning.
should be back in l.a. about 6′ish
i’m tired.
ready to come home.
sad to leave the leavells and taylors.
i cant wait to sleep in my own bed once again.
possibly more when once im back.
but i forsee about 15 hours of sleep as soon as my body hits my bed.
thanks for the prayers.
love to you all.