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day 7. i finished my task. the consistency was difficult not going to lie. blogging daily though helped me to definitely keep before me areas of my life in which i struggle. which quite honestly is pretty much every area of my life. i so often fail. but so often i seem to ignore it. i feel bad for a short time but allow myself to forget and get caught back up in the race that is life in orange county. by blogging it forces me to slow down ... Read More

i'm sick, sick sick of the disease the disease of being born born into this dying race i thought You came to heal to bring me back to life but why do i fail why do i break why do i still get sick i called Your name i screamed in pain but i sill get hurt i still feel sick my mind is confused things don't go like i think they should i want my way to be Your way but You heal as You so choose Your redemption is beyond comprehension Your way is definitely not my own break ... Read More

day 5 i almost really really forgot to blog today. but aaron kept me accountable and just reminded me. today was a busy day. 9am-noon was spent playing basketball in the nasty hot wind. noon-1pm consisted of showering, dropping video, and prepping a camera for wintercasualwonderland.(wcw) 1:30 pm went to bethel, set up tech and such things for wcw. 3:00pm wcw began. games and the such in the auditorium then food. whatever time it was we got the ice rink and i took pictures. i took 668 pictures. alot not very ... Read More

day 4 i almost forgot about the whole trying to blog for a week straight thing today... fortunately i had the word blog written and circled on a piece of paper on my ever cluttered desk that managed to see light and make eye contact with me. i used to use post it notes, which i loved, but i ran out so i have turned to just using whole pieces of blank white paper.  i have often been criticized for being a waster of paper. ... Read More

day 3. i have come to realize i am very judgmental. i judge people all the time. often without even thinking about it. before i know it i am thinking critical or negative thoughts about a person. i do this with people i know and even with complete strangers i see at a store. i have no right to judge. i am too messed of a human being to judge even the worst of humanity. only God has the right to judge. Father, forgive me for judging. forgive me for even thinking ... Read More

day 2. e. lock gave us this quote tonight and it got me thinking and writing on the back of a tithing envelope. "a man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, 'darkness' on the walls of his cell. " c.s lewis the quote isn't complicated. yet extremely deep. it's simple. yet profound. it is impossible for me to do anything to increase or decrease God's glory. there is nothing i can do ... Read More