live love.

6 dollars in my wallet.

6 days until i take my sat’s.

15 days of school completed.

48 days until application for chapman is due.

65 days until my last first high school varsity basketball game.

257 days until i graduate(includes weekends and non school days).

yesterday. friday. last day of the week.
i grew frustrated over little things.
things that didn’t matter.
i displayed a non Christ like attitude.
it had built up and was slowly revealing itself.
last period of the day. precal. doesn’t help any.
but this time it did.
in the room there is a poster that i’m sure has been there since the beginning of the year. but this was the first time i ever really noticed it.
it said “create in me a clean heart, o God; and renew a right spirit within me.”
i almost started crying in class. God had quite literally slapped me upside the head.
it was if he was saying grow up and change already.
i right away prayed that verse asking the Lord to give me a clean heart and a right spirit.
it amazes me how God shows himself sometimes.
He doesn’t verbally speak to us or send us emails or leaves us voicemails.
He speaks to us in ways so much rewarding and miraculous than that.
i am thankful i go to a christian school where that poster is not only allowed to hang but encouraged.
God is too good.
He is so real.
He is so legit.
He is true.
He is the Truth.
He is too loving.
He is too forgiving.
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also i think i have decided that i want to major in business or marketing and minor in art or graphic design or film.
my overall dream is to start this amazing company which many of you already know about. and i have been hearing from some professionals in the art and photography industry that schooling in those areas is basically networking and that you really learn and develop your style on your own for the most part. on top of that i highly doubt i have the skill level to get into the art program at chapman, but i think i have a decent chance at getting into the school in general.
i love art but i’m not sure that majoring it will be the wisest decision in the long run so i’m thinking a minor may work just as well.
whatever the Lord wills though is what i pray i end up doing.
life isn’t about me or my goals or my dreams or even my survival.
it’s a difficult truth to accept but it is truth none the less.
your prayers that i make decisions according to God’s will and not my own are more than appreciated.
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“the way God acts is always for His glory and our benefit.”
live love.
with reckless abandon.
hold nothing back.

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