lying just to envy

envious… oh so envious…
lies…i’m lying to myself
saying i am fine and alright
but deep down i know…
that i envy, envy, oh so envious
i tell you that it’s ok
i say if you’re happy then so am i
lying, lying, lying to myself
saying i am fine and alright
when deep inside i know…
that i envy, envy, envy you so much
you got your act together
while i’m searching for my own
i wish you the best but i’m hoping the worst
hypocrisy is my ever favorite verse
lying, lying, lying to myself
saying i am fine and alright
knowing it is all a lie…just a lie…
cause i envy, envy, envy all the time..
it’s like my new pastime
forming one big lie…
that i am ok, ok, ok and doing oh so fine
but i know it’s all a lie..
just one big blatant lie
cause i envy all the time…all the time…

…lying, lying, lying to myself
saying i am fine and alright
when deep inside i know…
that i envy, envy, envy you so much
you got your act together
while i’m searching for my own…

12:50 in the a.m. and i see my self as a liar.

lying to myself just to envy one more day, saying to self your doing ok.

Lord you know i am no where near ok. and even if i were ok, ok is not where i need to be.

we never arrive. we never plateau.

…i wish you the best but i’m hoping the worst
hypocrisy is my ever favorite verse…

One Response to “lying just to envy”

  1. Renae Says:

    wow, really true! Thanks for the thought provoking post!

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