live love.

fourth day of school ended today.
last wednesday was my last first day of high school.
276 days left till i graduate on june 12th at 7pm. (Lord willing i do graduate….)
my class schedule is much more full than i originally intended or thought.
after day one i gotta admit i wanted to say forget it already.
yea i know its day 1, i’m still in high school, i haven’t had anything yet.
but none the less that is how i felt. overwhelmed on day one of thoughts of period 0 after having an away game in temecula and getting home late and instead of showering and going to bed having to shower, do laundry for the game the next night, do ap econ and precal homework. (ok attempt to scribble something that looks like precal homework)
but God is good. too good.
pastor matt in chapel that first day talked about God’s mercies being brand new everyday. that put an end to my complaining right there.
(for the most part…im a wicked sinner and complainer yet…)
with God giving me the time of day to listen to my prayers and offer me fresh beginnings on a daily basis how can i let my joy in Him be stolen.
God is just too amazing and too good.
God intended life to have challenges.
He gives us new mercies daily and not on some monthly or annual plan so that we learn to trust Him. to rely on Him. to have to take life one day, one hour, one breath at a time by His very grace and mercy alone.
“i need Thee oh i need Thee, every hour i need Thee, i need Thee, i need Thee, i need Thee every hour…”
i can’t help but be in awe.
it inspires to me know that at the end of every day i look forward.
at the beginning of every day i look back.
and whether looking forward or backwards i see God as sovereign.
sovereign when i fail.
sovereign when He allows me to succeed.
sovereign when i completely throw a day down the drain.
sovereign when i live a moment completely to His glory.
consistent when i am not.
consistent when i am closer to Him.
consistent when i am running from Him.
consistent when i embrace everything He is.
consistent when i turn my face on His love.
sovereign. consistent. consistently sovereign.
i can’t count nor depend on me or anyone or anything else.
but i can undoubtedly depend on my Maker, Savior, and Lord.

so here’s to a school yr. a life. a journey of living, loving, failing, falling, hurting, laughing, learning, repenting, crying, searching, discovering and getting back up every time i fall, repenting every time i sin, living when i just want it all to end, learning true satisfaction in my God, my Love.

its been a while since i have written. so i feel off. i need to get back into it. some how i need to keep this more up to date…or more hours in the day…that would work as well.

love to you.
live. love. learn. fail. fall. get back up. cry. laugh. repent. rejoice. be satisfied. glorify. exalt. the One.

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