reckless abandon.
i want to live with reckless abandon.
i don’t want to hold anything back.
Jesus did not ever intend for us to live part time.
to be part time followers.
to be part time disciples.
we are either following Him or we aren’t.
everything we do is either glorifying God or going against God.
there is no in between. no middle ground.
He called us to excellence not failure and not mediocrity.
living ok. living alright. that doesn’t cut it.
i’m not saying we aren’t going to screw up.
what i’m saying is we will care when we do.
it will hurt. it will cause shame because we are so passionate about Him.
we can’t live as followers of Him unless we give it all to Him.
we can’t hold anything back.
we must abandon everything that this world has to offer us.
we can not be attached to stuff. to goals. to accomplishments.
what this world has to offer us is nothing compared to what God has planned.
what He has in store for us.
we sell God short.
we don’t trust Him.
we think He can’t top the world’s offers.
we think He calls us to a life of rules and “dos” and “donts”
we think wrong. very wrong.
who are we to say God doesn’t know what is best?
why do we think we know better?
why don’t we believe His word when He says ask and it shall be given to you?
why are we so attached to possessions and things that will not last into eternity?
why are we so afraid to let go?
to let go of everything we have and everything we are.
we are only willing to give God part.
we are willing to let a little bit go and probably only then minor things we are ok with losing.
Jesus when calling people to follow Him did not take them unless they just dropped everything on the spot and followed Him right then and there.
no making excuses. no let me do this first.
drop all and follow.
live with reckless obedience.
just obey. just do as He says and do it right and do it all out.
with reckless abandon.
holding nothing back.
i know i fail often.
i fail at living recklessly with abandon for my Savior and God.
i struggle. i love stuff too much.
i am too materialistic.
i am too self centered.
i live for convenience all too often, for pleasure, for me.
but it doesn’t work.
living that way doesn’t glorify my Maker.
living that way doesn’t magnify the cross.
living that way doesn’t show people hope.
when i live for self, i wonder how many people i am leading to hell.
how many people am i leading down a life without any hope.
how many people am i causing to fail.
God. Savior. Creator. Father.
i mess up. i love me too much too often.
i live by my will rather than Yours.
i pray that You would kill my will. that i would die to it.
that Your will would be my will.
that i would hold nothing back from You.
that all i am would be Yours and only Yours.
that my life would reflect Your beauty and the hope You offer.
may i live with reckless abandon.
may You be my everything.
may i never boast in me.
may i always boast in You and Your Son and Your cross and Your love.
i thank You for Your patience, mercy, love, and understanding.
i’m sorry for not living as You want me to live.
and i know sorry is not enough.
may it translate Lord to action, to a way of living, to You being made much of.