it’s been a while
i need to write.
i haven’t blogged in a long while.
i need to get back to some consistency in this, as God knows i am inconsistent as can be and i hate that about how i live.
i have been sick for about a week and a half now.
being sick is lame.
i was sick during christmas break too.
up until this christmas break i almost never got sick, maybe once or twice an entire yr and in a 3 month period i have managed to get ridiculously sick twice.
the other day i made a decision.
it is actually i kinda interesting one at that.
i decided to have a senior of high school. (Lord willing)
back in november i decided i wanted to attempt to graduate early.
so after some discussion with my parents i decided to make an attempt at it and go for it. well i have decided to not graduate early. due to my deciding to attempt to graduate early i was behind in taking sats, filling out apps, financial aid etc etc etc.
also i kept having second thoughts about getting out now and i kept wrestling with it in my head almost every day. so wednesday i spent the afternoon praying, thinking, and taking a nap.(naps are most beneficial, that may be a whole other blog in itself)
after waking from my nap, i grabbed pen and paper and wrote down what i was thinking. these are some of the things i wrote.
i am not ready as a person for college.
i have proven to myself i am not ready because of my lack of doing the research and work necessary to get into a school that would be the right choice for me.
and the schools i did have in my mind i would have no shot at getting in this late in the game.
do i really want to just get out of high school to go to a junior college and kinda float through this thing of life and college?
why am i trying to grow up so fast?
i realized i only get 4 yrs in my entire life to play basketball at the competitive level that is high school sports.
do i want to sell my one last yr of that out just to be doing general ed in some local community college?
(nothing against community college, but i want something more and bigger in life than that)
well that explains that i suppose.
now for the state of my site…
i’m back to my old look, which i have quickly grown to hate with a passion it almost seems. unfortunately there are not enough hours in the day for sports, school, church, homework, and spending 3-4 hours messing with the css and php files of a halfway decent wordpress theme…so until i do get some time to mess with it i guess i’ll leave it as is, but you never know, i’m just inconsistent enough to do something stupid.
well that turned into an update on my life…possibly another post later on tonight…no guarantees though.
live.
love.
live love.
live love as Jesus lived love.
psalm 8:3-4