i am a hypocrite.
you are too.
i claim so many things.
i claim so much truth.
but rarely it seems do i live it out.
i feel repetitive.
like a broken record.
i have said this all before.
i’m in love with me.
way too in love with me.
way too love with stuff.
i am too easily satisfied with stuff.
i am too easily made [...]
as you can you probably tell my site looks a tad different then before.
feel free to let me know what you think of the new look both good and bad.
i’m still trying to find a good picture for the header.
but at this moment i have what i think is a cool picture of some chalk [...]
“God calls us to pray and think and dream and plan and work not to be made much, but to make much of Him in every part of our lives.” – john piper
i so often fail that.
i desire to honor and glorify God in every aspect of my life.
yet it is seemingly rare that i [...]
why does losing hurt so bad?
why does failure bring so much pain?
why can i not stand losing and failing?
why does it make me so mad at myself?
why does it make me hurt so much both physically and emotionally?
why?
running too fast
thinking too slow
even not at all
skipping beats
out of rhythm
lack of control
reckless i am
not keeping my head
and breaking down
in fast forward
i am and i know
yet once again i find
myself to be going to fast
slow me down
slow me down
slow my tempo down
ashamed i stand
for i learn not
from my mistakes
i repeat in fast forward
lack of thinking
lack [...]
calling it a poem…
leaning then falling,
wavering to and fro,
now high then low
left then right, i wander
from one extreme to another
out of rhythm and out of space
from too little to too much,
i try and fail.
unbalanced i’ve become.
unbalanced i’ve always been.
this feeling i know,
oh too well do i know…
unbalance i know…
i’m not where i need to be
are [...]