satisfied enough…
i took one too many naps to day i think.
i’m pretty tired and even sleepy right now, but i can’t seem to fall asleep.
so to occupy myself i decided to just start writing, or more like typing.
free typing, free writing same thing i suppose.
the song “enough” has been running through my head all day.
partially because we sang it during spam night and i used it in the video as well.
but also the meaning of the song is a little bit more real to me today than it has in the past.
i have always felt like i understood the song so to speak.
got the drift.
the point.
God is more than enough.
it’s like here’s the amount we need and God is that amount and then much more.
this is one of those truths that really is only effective if lived out.
if it is truly believed.
i can say God you are more than enough for me.
You are beyond what i need.
and then i have the gall to tell God hey i need such and such and i need it now.
or i complain and wonder why God hasn’t blessed me as much as He has seemingly blessed someone else.
it’s like i am never truly satisfied.
even though i claim to be satisfied in Christ.
in Bible class we have been discussing this idea of christian hedonism
which basically says that the only way to glorify and please God is to be completely satisfied in Him.
that is so much easier said that done.
it is so easy, particularly as americans, to be constantly wanting and never satisfied until we have the latest and greatest.
we, i, always want more.
i know i’m guilty.
paul was able to say in whatever situation i find myself in i am content.
but i don’t think it is all about being satisfied with everything.
i should not be satisfied with how close i am to God.
i should always be craving more.
striving to be closer.
i should not be satisfied with my service to others.
i shouldn’t be content with partially helping someone when i know i can and should do so much more.
my thoughts are so disorganized right now.
for that i apologize.
Lord,
may i be truly be satisfied in You.
may You truly be more than enough, but never let me have enough of You.
may i always be seeking You more and never be satisfied with my relationship with You.
thank You for being You.